Falling

This has been a long week and it’s only Wednesday, the kids have been fighting me with everything they got, work is mundane and then I have one of those dreadful yearly events coming up next week. I wasn’t even thinking about it until my friend of almost 20 years texted me to see what I was doing to celebrate. After I thought about it I figured I could go see an old friend who is having her party at a local bar on Saturday. Then the friend that texted me asked why I’m not planning anything for myself and it kind of depressed me when I thought about it. I’ve tried to get us all together in the past years but everyone one always has an excuse or something else to do so I just gave up. What woman wants to celebrate turning another year older any ways? I would love to go out with a group of friends but everyone has their own life now between husbands/wives, kids, work, and lack of ambition it’s hard to get everyone on the same page. So thanks dear friend for helping me to realize that even though I have tried so hard to keep everyone in touch and together for the past 15 years we are all still drifting apart. We’ll just add that to my list of failures. Life sure has its ups and downs, I would sure like to see more ups but lately damn, just when I start climbing I find myself back at the bottom.